We saw a heartbeat!!!
It is such a miracle that I am even typing this blog. I was so worried I'd end up spending tonight bawling my eyes out. I'm so ecstatic to report that I am a happy girl while typing this!
We lost our last two babies around 6 weeks, so this was our first chance to experience a heartbeat. The heartbeat was the most beautiful little flicker I've ever seen. Michael had the sweetest, most honest reaction. ;) I wish we could have taped the moment. I was already in tears because I was so scared. When the image popped up, it was like the most indescribable wonderful moment. Scared tears became happy tears.
Now, we aren't out of the woods, but the doctor says that seeing a heartbeat puts us in a new category. He is very optimistic.
There are a couple of things he is watching. I have a weird bacteria infection. It was at one point in time thought to cause miscarriages, but I am being treated for it and have been for about a week. Doc says that it probably isn't what caused my first two miscarriages. He doesn't think that spotting it is why I'm all of a sudden having a good pregnancy, but he says he would still want it treated. Still, it's weird, so any prayers for that are appreciated.
The other thing is that I have a blood clot. It isn't close to anything important, so we are just going to keep watching it. He did not seem worried about that either. Still, it makes me nervous, so prayers regarding that are appreciated.
I also need prayers regarding my anxiety. I spent the day in a state of nervous anticipation. I know I need to calm down. I don't think I'll breathe easy until this baby is in my arms, but I need to at least learn how to just breathe and let things happen.
Thank you so much for reading this and praying for Michael and me as we go through this!